I encourage you to recalibrate and find that compass. Allow it to guide you towards your [younger 5 or 50 year old version's] dream.
Remember the dream. Remember what that dream was and why you started in the first place... not the things that dream gets you, not the things that you want the dream to give to you. Remember your original dream. Remember your 10 year old self - what did they want out of life?
What can I do to give back to the community that's given me so much?
I wanted to be able to make use of my skills everyday.
I turned to my own internal compass of what success looks like and not what other people define as successful.
It didn't feel like home to me. It didn't feel like I was actually living in my purpose. It felt like I was getting ready to sell my soul.
Living in your purpose creates results. It works if you actually live in your purpose and remember the initial dream.
I recalibrated and readjusted my compass.
Many of us surrender early. Many of us give up on our dreams when we're very close to that breakthrough.
My compass at the time, my muse, was just 'things.'
I had many unspoken expectations of what a successful rapper would look like.